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Anonymous asked: I've been living on my own since I was 16, I'm 18 now. I don't know how to handle the loneliness anymore, it's so much so often, it hits so hard. Please help me
Loneliness is the worst feeling in the world, because it is your own body telling you that you aren’t enough. I understand how heavy it is, like every time you find your footing, it pulls you under again. I can’t imagine being on my own the way that you have been, and I have a very sharp feeling of admiration towards you, for taking care of yourself this long. I’m so sorry that you feel this way so often, and I wish there was a sentence that could cure you, but I don’t know if one exists. I am going to tell you what I tell myself when I feel like I’m choking, okay? I hope it helps, even in the slightest. Also, please remember that you can always seek professional help, if the pain doesn’t go away. There is nothing weak about it. I know that it costs money and insurance and all of that, but if you are able, please don’t think that it isn’t an option.
I tell myself I am on purpose. I was made, and I am here, for a reason. I am in this body, this brain, because I am meant to be. This loneliness is sharp and it stings behind my eyes at all hours of the day, but sometimes the sky is so fucking beautiful, and the wind is so gentle, that I forget. Sometimes, the world gets so quiet, that I can hear the other lonely people listening. I look at the different colors of the clouds, and I imagine the first person who decided to paint them. I think of the first humans, how wild and scared and unfamiliar they must have felt inside themselves. I think of when they first discovered fire, when they first discovered that particular shade of orange. It’s all so beautiful, and I am here. I am going to meet people who will help me forget, if only for a moment, that I have only ever had myself. I am going to love so hard, and so fierce, that it will scare the shit out of me. I am going to live, because of the little moments of clarity. Because loneliness is just one emotion, and there is room in my heart for more. I am going to fill every space. I am not going to disappear inside of this pain.